There's a hero in all of us...

Just watched spider-man 2 with my brothers. All I can say is, being a comic-book fan and all I really loved how Sam Raimi directed this film. I really admire directors who know how to please both the core audience and those that are just experiencing the story for the first time, and how he told it was like coming off the comic book pages which made the film even better. Undoubtedly the best summer movie for me so far, and eventhough I expected what was gonna transpire in the ending to build up for the next installment, I liked the fact that the story was moving into that direction and being true to the comic-book story. I'd give it a 10 out of 10. Go watch it, if I can spare the time again (and the money) I'll watch it again.

"There's a hero in all of us, that keeps us honest, gives us strength, makes us noble, then finally allows us to die with pride, eventhough sometimes we have to be steady and give up the things we want the most...even our dreams..."

Special Mentions...

Honestly it's been tough times as of late for me right now, and am finally starting to hang in there. Aside from the obvious (God and family), a big factor for me moving on is the support I'm getting from some old friends and even from some new ones whom I've just gotten to know a lot more recently. For that they get my utmost thanks and gratitude. You guys know who you are...

"Don't ask for what you want, but be thankful with what you deserve."

How do I feel right now?... I'm fine, I've moved on...

Just One of those Days...

Everybody has 'em... No matter how much we try to take back control of what's happening to us during the day, we'll always have those 'days' wherein, almost all that you do either always gonna go wrong, but some things, things you didn't expect, suddenly going your way without you even doing anything about it... hhhmmm today has been a very strange 'One of those days' indeed...

Something Bad to Something Good...

I was forced to reformat and reinstall my OS early in the morning 'coz our street got struck by lightning which caused a blackout and corrupted by OS upon having the power back on. Damn! Good thing none of my files were damaged. Oh well... my to do list just got screwed!!!

But the irony of it was an e-mail I received from my ISP immediately upon connecting to the internet again, saying that they were doubling my bandwith for free starting July 1. Wow! first my yahoo! got a massive upgrade and now this... ain't it a great time to be online... :D

Happy Father's Day to my Dad and all Dad's out there...

Weekends off...

Well I finally got a schedule in which my days off is on a weekend... whew! Well I have a lot of spring cleaning to do. Atleast I'll have some time again to fix my stuffs and finally make my website.

To Do List
1. Clean my room
2. Clean my computer (both inside and out)
3. Start my website
4. Watch my pending movies
5. Meet up with a old friend

Hopefully by weeks-end I have accomplished a lot of my "to-do" list. And probably watched 3 movies that have already been put on hold due to my hectic schedule...

How do I feel right now? ...hhhmmm healing, hoping but not insisting... ;)

Guys Night... I mean Afternoon Out!

For the first time in a long time, I watched a movie together with my two brothers, usually I either watch alone or with my twin, but this time our elder brother tagged along. We watched the chronicles of riddick which is one kick-ass movie by the way. If you haven't watched pitch black don't worry only the characters are the same for this one. I had a really great time, eventhough I did feel a bit sleepy afterwards since we watched it right after work.

We're all big movie buffs so seeing as there are a lot more good movies coming out this summer... Just hope I have the budget to watch'em all he he he.

Sick and Tired but Happy...

I was having a severe case of a sinusitis attack which kept me *sniffing at work almost the entire shift... I feel like my face is swollen like a melon and wishing the day would just end so that I can rest, but unexpectedly I actually had one call that actually made my day ok.

I had a call today about a girl who was having problems with her computer and that she was already talking to a technician for about 3 hours and they couldn't fix the problem until she got disconnected. When I got the call I can still hear her Mom talking in the background, obviously furious that the problem hasn't been fix. Well when the girl told me her problem and I told her what to do... well whatayahknow the problem was fixed...

The funny thing about the call was what happened next... the girl's mom just snatched the phone from her hand and said... "Can I ask you something?" I said sure... "You know you should get a raise!!! Why did it take you just 10 minutes to fix this problem when it took that other guy 3 hours and they still weren't able to fix it"... Right then I was actually speechless... Why did it took me just 10 minutes to fix her problem... acting spontaneous I just said that it really depends on how you read the situation and which resolution you should choose to resolve it... But in my mind... to be honest, I haven't the slightest clue...

Then it got me thinking... why people do what they do... why for some it takes a lot of effort, while for some... no effort at all.

But then I realized, it's not really the praise I got for being able to help the girl's problem that fast... But the simple fact that I was able to help the girl, which made not exactly my day great but hers, and obviously her mothers too.

Hhhhmmm... Thank You God for making me realize that even in my most sickening and tiring state, You still find a way to cheer me up.

Apology...

Accepting the reality of things are always the most hardest things to accept. I know "I told yah so" is a rusted term already used time and again, but funny thing is, it always feels new everytime you are put into a situation wherein you feel like you can make something happen, but the reality is you have the slightest bit of clue over anything about it.

It's hard to take things in stride, especialy with regards to failure, desperation and even rejection. You try to block out all of what people around you say and blind yourself of the scenario where you think you're in control but you're not. It's always a learning experience to take risk, because you're always bound to face consequences, even if you've proven yourself worthy, almost all of the time the consequences of taking such risk is always big. At times, too big for one to handle.

I did a lot of things I am regretful in my life, some I don't know why I did, and some... well I had to, it was a chance at something I thought was worth the risk but never have I felt so wrong and ruin something already great. I'm gonna try to make things right, but before I do that I first have to accept the fact that... when reality sets in, its all my fault, and for that I'm sorry.

Ever Wonder...

I often ask myself this question whenever I'm caught in a pause... ,"What are you thinking?" I honestly do not know, I wonder why I feel there's a lot of questions left unanswered in life but whenever I begin to put my attention into one... like love... everything goes into a blur. I can never seem to stop and think that something so simple can be so overwhelming.

Ever wonder when you're in a position where you try to reach for something that changes you but its a long shot and you know its... a definite long shot, but a certain feeling inside you clouds it and makes you think that its all possible. Better a chance than no chance right.

What I feel right now for this person. I don't know, I feel it in my gut that there's something more to this. I don't feel a sense of lust or infatuation, but to be honest a feeling of choice, that when I close my eyes I still have that feeling about her. I now realize, like every other person she has met, that she's someone special. I just feel ashamed and mad at myself that it had to take a broken heart for me to truly notice her. I mean... I just realized that there where numerous occasions where I could've stop looking at what's around me and started to appreciate what was already in front of me but I didn't. Maybe it wasn't the time...

Maybe this is the time...

The only thing that's helping me get through the day is the possibility that things will always work themselves out one way or another. And I have faith that it will, whether it be the ending I'm hoping for or not.

People say that things happen for a reason and that reason is faith. And faith by definition is something immutable. Ask for your special someone and she'll come...don't hope its true...know its true.

... But that's just me...

Down...

With so much that is happening to me this past few weeks, I really feel down at the moment. Having a lot of this on my mind, problems financially and some other stuff too personal to discuss. It drives me crazy just thinking about it... and drives me more by ignoring it... I really need to get some time and really think about this, hopefully I can set things to their proper course and get through this.

On a lighter note, I recommend you watch Shrek 2 and The Day after tomorrow. Well worth the admission's fee. At least it made me forget about my problems for 5 hours. Peace out!