Lesson's Learned

A lot of things can upset us. More often than not, its these frustrations that sometimes dictate what actions we do next... from how we react, to the words we choose. We can easily say excuses, saying we couldn't really help it... couldn't we really?!

Its hard to start opening yourself to others, 'coz you're more prone to easily get hurt. You sometimes overreact, lose composure, even lose focus. Thinking you have total control of everything before taking the risk... but eventually losing even your sense of logic. Everyone can be broken...

I guess the only thing we can get out of all these negativity is the fact that we can still regroup, gather our thoughts, learn from our mistakes and accept the reality that we aren't as strong as we think we are... And with those lessons we learn from pain, is the ones that makes us the strongest.

How do I feel? ...I'll get back to you on that.

Comeback!

I stated blogging in 2004, it seemed so easy then to just post and post whatever was on my mind. It actually feels weird why it gradually became harder and harder for me to make a regular post... sometimes feeling that what I was gonna post has lost its purpose since delay after delay for reasons... well thats just it... reasons...

Anyway, I haven't been keeping true to my commitment this year so I won't make anymore excuses and just do it.

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Work was what it always has been (probably what it always should be) its still work... I've lost hope regarding whatever twisted perverted mind my dept is trying to prove, and just let it pass... If you asked me, I'll say, "I'm just passing through". I love the company and probably won't go anywhere else, its the dept that brings a bad taste in my mouth. So I'm just gaining momentum and get the oppurtunity to move elsewhere... but it'll be internally of course.

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As I grow older I'm starting to have more and more nurtured relationships with friends. I'm starting to see clearly who has become part of my inner circle. I mean once we start talking about more serious stuff like "how's your kids? and the family?" you tend to become more part of each other's life than just someone who you love to hang out with. "A friend is family you give to yourself" In this case I starting to have a very big family hehehe.

How do I feel? I'm currently lost for words...