Kal's Log: 05/01/2006

Actions

I've come to terms that people are really complex beings capable of interpreting even the most simplest of things and compounding it into something uncomprehensable. More true is that evident in relationships, whether it be with family, with a loved one, or even with friends. One can interpret it one way whereas its as obvious as how it was presented to another. I've heard enough, seen enough and felt enough to know that we shouldn't really let others dictate our actions and vise versa. I'm not saying that you shouldn't give back the care, concern, respect and even love people give you. That's all good. But what I'm referring to is when the actions we do are caused by misunderstandings, first impressions, overreactions and such. It's always easy to advise someone to do this or to do that, but we often times find it hard to follow our own advises if we ourselves are put into that same situation. I now that we all have our own place in the people we care for. We just gotta start acting like one and not be someone else. Don't be a parent if your just a friend... And don't be a friend if your the parent.

I've realized where I was wrong. This stops right now!

Moving Forward

The only constant thing in the world is change. No matter how much we try and keep things the way they were, the way they are, the way they're supposed to be. You can't really hinder change from happening. As Agent Smith would say it, "It's inevitable!"

Ever had the feeling where you've realized you want something so bad but end up frustrated knowing that you can't control the outcome. Whether it be the last shot in a game to a judge's decision in a contest. We'll eventually give a little bit of it to chance.

The hard part for me is realizing I can't stop the world from turning. Change will forever be around me. Whether it be material stuffs, like work and pay, to personal stuffs such as character changes and relationships. I grew up with the foundation of having a strong will, but as you may have read in the previous sets of post that I can still be as fragile as anyone can. But I guess one good thing about being strong is it can also make you strong enough to embrace the changes and move forward. No one says it'll be easy, I can atest its been hell for me... I guess its a way of making you more appreciative of what you have knowing that you've been through a lot trying to get it, and trying to keep it intact.

I've always practiced being an optimist and always look at the bright side of things. With change comes the irony of, "No matter how much things change, some things will always stay the same." I really hope and believe that with all the changes in my life that they are for the best. I'll hold no ill will towards it and will embrace it with open arms.

How do I feel? Moving on...whether I like it or not